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Current Music:Marilyn Manson - Love song
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Subject:i am not dead
Time:08:41 pm
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Current Music:Relative Ash - Pout
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Time:01:44 pm
Current Mood:anxiousanxious
It will be so nice to have 2 incomes. My baby fish are ready to sell and I have a few people interested. I got sick last week, went to the doctor and they gave me antibiotics which I'm not taking because antibiotics suck. I'm feeling much better tho. X-rays show that my lungs are better than before, AND it also showed I have a slight scoliosis. My heart and lungs are fine. NO WONDER MY BACK IS ALWAYS FUCKED UP. Dammit. Good thing about my heart and lungs tho. One less ulcer. If I could sleep at night I might actually be ok.
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Current Music:Faith No More - Mid Life Crisis
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Time:07:09 pm
Current Mood:anxiousanxious
Ok, I am starting to feel better. I have been kind of anxious about something tho. There is a guy friend of mine who is going to come stay with me, from michigan. I think he's a really great guy, and I'm going to help him out. But I'm so used to living alone, I just don't know how things will work out. I am hoping he gets a job fairly quickly. I am going to do my best to help him find a job, but Olympia sucks for jobs.

Since I started smoking again I get to see my friend Kathy that I used to work with over in the other building. It's been almost a year since I've been able to talk to her on a regular basis. She was having some kind of family problems for a while, and I didn't hear from her. I was really pissed off at her, but I can understand detaching yourself from others for some periods of time. Another girl I used to work with over there just landed a really nice job with one of the clients, I am so happy for her, she deserves it.

So I have a shitload of betta babies that are getting to be old enough to sell. I guess it's time for me to figure out how to sell them now. I have to get a business license and all that. I hear it's cheap, like sixteen bucks. We'll see how that works out.



I am ready for work to be done with.
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Current Music:Mr Bungle - Creeping Death
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Time:05:22 pm
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
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Current Music:The Orb - Perpetual Dawn
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Time:03:14 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
I feel like shit. I shouldn't. I should be happy, and mellow, and content. I hate being content. I have alot of anger. I am feeling less suicidal. I need to clean my house and I'll feel better.
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Current Music:Marilyn Manson Ka-boom Ka-boom
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Time:03:46 pm
Current Mood:accomplishedaccomplished
My weekend wasn't a total disaster. We made pot oatmeal cookies. They were really good. We thought it would be best to eat two and see how it hit us, we woke up about four hours later. I was pretty upset that he took the rest home, didn't even save one for me. Pfft. I've gotten alot of work done today, been able to answer all the questions people have asked me around the office. I guess I'm the techroom Linux guru now. I'm having alot of fun with FreeBSD tho.
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Current Music:Marilyn Manson - Irrisponsible Hate Anthem
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Time:10:58 pm
Current Mood:highhigh
Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the lord my soul to keep,
If I should die before I wake,
Thank fucking god.
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Current Music:B-Wicked - Play Area
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Time:12:01 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
I am supposed to have company from out of town this weekend. Took an extra day off of work.

On April 11th I told myself that I was not going to each chocolate for a year. Not that I completely love chocolate or anything, it's just a thing I eat sometimes. I am doing it as a test of self-control and discipline, something I am totally lacking. I got the idea from an ex who gave up pizza for a year. I know things have been low, and it's been really shitty that I started smoking cigs again, but I know if I give up and have chocolate, I am probably very close to killing myself. I am contemplating going to the doctor next week, I don't want to go back on medication but I do not want to die either. I really feel like it is out of my hands at this point.

http://www.ljudmila.org/~vuk/ascii/deep.htm







ART
ART/TEMPERANCE
"the creator, the alchemist"
You achieve balance and integration through the
creative process or by working with the hands;
you have a deep love for your creative
expression which is inspired by your great
perception and emotional insights. You love
truth and beauty for their own sakes. You have
the ability to balance and blend masculine and
feminine, yin and yang, reception and
assertion. Remember that the highest art form
is that of artful relationships.


***which major arcana of the thoth tarot deck are you? short; with pictures and detailed results***
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Time:11:47 am
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If orchid blooms lived for a hundred years,
and the number of them doubled every year,
would they still be as beautiful, to us?
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Current Music:Marilyn Manson - The Bright Young Things
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Subject:Valium and Coffee
Time:01:22 pm
Current Mood:relaxedrelaxed
I keep getting annoyed lately. It feels like everyone wants something from me during a time when I just want to be left alone. I fear damaging friendships but how can I care when I don't even give a shit whether I live or die? Work is just something I do in between sleeping and IRCing. I will have company this weekend. I need time to reflect and to meditate, and to create.





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In A Post-Apocalyptic World, Who Would You Be?
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